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I'll Be Nowhere One DayI keep wanting to write about everything.
Ill stop myself.
Some things shouldnt be let out.
Im afraid Id lose them; theyd float away, never felt again, never really felt in the first place.
I want to take a picture of outside.
The northern mist blankets everything, mixing with the grass, rolling over the graceful green hills.
It almost looks pretty.
Then I remember that I dont want to be here.
I dont want to be on this overcrowded bus, I dont want to be suffocated by the mist, I dont want to be on my way to that blasted, damned school.
I want to be nowhere.
And Ill get there one day.
No one is noticing.
No one sees my tears.
No one hears my sobbing.
Because no one can.
I know I shouldnt bottle it up, but what else can I do?
My heart is heavy and light, my breathing is shallow.
It feels like someone is helping me lift my chest when I inhale, then ram it back down when I exhale.
I guess h
Fibers and Pieces and MemoriesI waited in the park for you.
I waited by our pretty fountain.
The pink, lavender, purple sky looked like sweet candy; I wanted to rip it up and eat it with you.
I watched the moon peek out with a half opened eye, gazing down upon my reflection in the water.
I heard footsteps, light and heavy, but not the right ones, not yours.
The evening air was warm, my loneliness was freezing, a delicious combination.
You promised to be there- be there at seven and to be there for me.
I lied to myself in the park because of you.
I waited in the park for you.
I cried in the park for you.
Your love letters to me, your gift, your protection that would keep us from living on,
Just tipping over the edge, spilling out onto the surface feet, miles, centuries below.
I watched it fall like my tears, sopping, soaking, wet.
They all bloomed and disintegrated, becoming nothing more than fibers and pieces and memories.
Because thats all you are to me now.
Fibers, pieces, and memories.
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